In The Past Month What Have I Learned?
Hmmmm gosh always making me think really hard. Well at the moment only one thing comes to mind. That is I've learned how much I really appreciate and love the important people in my life. November was a pretty crazy month. My precious niece Keinani was born, there were birthdays, my dad in the hospital, Thanksgiving and work. It was pretty hectic at times, but despite all that we were still able to get together and spend time as family and take care of each other.
When Keinani arrived I took care of my other niece Mahealani more than I usually do. We had to coordinate what time we had work to see who can take care of her. Going up to the hospital for her mommy time and to see her baby sister. I always knew it was hard work taking care a child, but for some reason I had a hard time. I don't know how they handle multiple children at a time.
When my dad was in the hospital I got a phone call from my brother Mark while I was at work. He doesn't call often so I thought I'd answer it. He just told me the situation and that my dad had pneumonia and that he's okay. I just figured he'll be alright and he'll be home in the next few days. SIKE it turned out to be way more than that and spent basically the rest of November in there. Of course my awesome mom was there with him too, so we had to maintain the house. Keep it clean, do the dishes, do the grocery shopping. It was like we were on our own for a little hahah. I realized how much my mom actually did for us. We are spoiled!
We thought my dad would be home by Thanksgiving, but unfortunately he wasn't. So like the awesome brothers and sisters we are, we were all just assigned something to make it happen. It totally happened! Dinner was still awesome! We just took some food up to my parents afterwards and spent some time with them.
Even between all that, we still got together to celebrate mine and Hea's birthday. Getting everyone together for dinner. The dollz taking me out later that week. It was totally needed I must say. I am forever grateful for them two! I'd seriously probably be a wreck without them. You always have your family and everything but sometimes you just need that extra support. It might sound weird but I think we complete each other hahah. We were meant to be in each other's lives. Without even knowing it they say the right thing at the right time. That's why I love them!
I guess another thing I learned about myself is that I often question my self-worth. I'm not depressed or wanna kill myself, but I just feel like a loser sometimes. Everyone knows I'm capable of so much and you are an incredible person and can achieve so much. I know I can I just don't really know what to do with myself. So for now I'll just keep surrounding myself with the amazing people from all the above and just think positive and eventually be that person that achieved so much.
